The Hearse Ride...
Wednesday, July 09, 2008
Missing Jake's ...
I know that sounds Bitchy, but that is how I feel.
Like a death, Anger is tying to set in . . . I really don't feel sorry, I am just disappointed, that it was so abrupt.
I need a place to fellowship in, and Jake's was that place for me ...now I don't know what to do.
I feel lost now. I feel sorrow!
I cry enough as it is, now I'm a mess!!
I wish I had the drive to open my own site, but ...I don't, what with trying to keep Granny in line and dealing with my Father's alcoholism/health probs, and trying to keep the family together, ..(even if I don't like my step-mother..her kids are worth it)..
I'm about burned out, but I say that all the time....I'm afraid of my burn out point, it scares me...because I know a death will be involved. Maybe not a literal death, ..but a Spiritual death is worse,..as far as I'm concerned.