It's over guys,...I just CAN'T DO IT ANYMORE, ...my hope is GONE. I am and have always been a failure at this thing called life. W/O help in day to day life, ... I screw it up every time. No point in doing the same thing day to day, ...I'm exhausted!!
I'm ready to put my cat down with the shotgun, ...although a shotgun slug would no doubt take her head off, ...and least she'd finally be quiet!!
This fucking depressive state I've been in lately (1-1-2011) is doing me in!! I think of suicide 24/7, and in a way I can't do, since I don't own a handgun. I own an antique shotgun that hasn't been cleaned in at least 20 years, ..not something to load live rounds into!! A car with a screwed up exhaust system, no garage, no pills .... I do own several super sharp chef knives that would do the job, but one has to plunge them in themselves, ...Not gonna happen here!!
I've been asking myself the same question for most of my life, ..WHY THE FUCK AM I HERE?!?
Keep flapping your lips & there will be a surprise later!!