This fucking depressive state I've been in lately (1-1-2011) is doing me in!! I think of suicide 24/7, and in a way I can't do, since I don't own a handgun. I own an antique shotgun that hasn't been cleaned in at least 20 years, ..not something to load live rounds into!! A car with a screwed up exhaust system, no garage, no pills .... I do own several super sharp chef knives that would do the job, but one has to plunge them in themselves, ...Not gonna happen here!!
I've been asking myself the same question for most of my life, ..WHY THE FUCK AM I HERE?!?